Kai's boards on Thursday were over! We had dinner plans with some friends to celebrate being done and enjoy "normal" life again. I was a little tired but passed it off as a busy week after taking an intensive class at La Sierra. I also was going to the bathroom every hour, but dismissed it to too much lemonade. After staying out late and then coming home to some much needed sleep, I woke up wide awake at 5:00 a.m.--no alarm necessary with one thought on my mind--pregnancy test! Yes, I was late, but that wasn't necessarily atypical. I just had a feeling that things were different and there was only one way to find out. As I made my way to the bathroom, I kept telling myself that things probably were normal and the test would be negative, but there was the small chance....
Let me insert a well known fact for those who know me well, and possibly a surprise for those who don't. Pregnancy tests and I have long been friends. When we were married almost 8 years ago, my mom gave me a pack of roughly 100 pregnancy tests (she must've known my slight OCD tendency) and she said they were “just in case I needed reassurance”. Since we've been married students most of our lives so far, kids are something we've always wanted, but knew we had to wait for. I used the last of those 100 tests sometime last year and have had to supplement with dollar store ones in the meantime.
Back to the story...I dipped the stick into the cup and watched...control line...waiting...and...slowly a second line started to appear. Thanks to my mom who was a labor and delivery nurse for a period, I also knew that a false negative was possible, but a false positive was not. I was going to be a mom, Kai a dad, us: Parents. I let it sink in long enough to realize that this was actually great news and I HAD to share it 5 am or not. I quietly walked to the bedroom at sat on the bed wide awake next to Kai. He rustled and then his eyes barely opened to realize me sitting, not lying in bed. "Hey, what's up?" He managed to say still mostly asleep. "I'm pregnant!" I said. His eyes snapped open, all of the sudden he was awake. I led him to the bathroom and pointed out the second line...it was official. No more sleeping...things were definitely going to change.
So was this planned? Well, we were actually going to start trying in July. We had that date planned since 2004 after deciding that Kai was going to dental school. So this was really only a month early. How? Well, in June Kai thought that there was no need to prevent anymore since we’d start trying in a month anyway. Besides, we had been married for almost 8 years and never had a surprise. We both wondered if we would have a hard time conceiving since we really didn’t know anyone married that long without an accident. So we just decided to stop preventing, but not start “trying” either. So now, I realize that at times my slight OCD on certain things is a good quality that has allowed us to pursue our dreams saving kids for a time when we’re a little more prepared for them.
We’re very excited, looking forward to all the changes that will inevitably take place in the coming months and years. We’re thankful to God for creating a life inside of me. We pray that our baby will be healthy and strong and that we’ll adjust well to all the changes.