I don’t even know where to start. I could update with pictures from our recent vacation. But I’ll save that for another day. I could write on the experiences of the last year. Busy. Chaotic. Unconventional. Surprisingly refreshing. Undoubtedly stressful. But I’m not feeling that today either. I could write about the fact that my boys; my sweet, exuberant, smiling, challenging, boys, will be turning 3 tomorrow and 1 in 2 weeks. And that I have no idea where time went. And that I’m thrilled that they are getting older and more independent, and that a part of me is cheering them on every step of the way, and another part is snuggling them close not wanting these milestones to happen so quickly. But again, I don’t think that’s for today. Possibly the fact that Kai and just celebrated 11 ½ years of marriage? (yes we celebrate the ½ years too) But, no. As much as I cherish those moments, that’s not where I will take this post today. What about pictures of our home? Hmmmm…that’s tempting because that is where so much of my energy has been focused these last 2 months, but I think I’ll also save that for another time.
Instead today, I just want to revel in the fact that life is sweet. After months of being unsettled, our life has started to slow. My boys are both sleeping. My house is not yet cleaned. There are fingerprint smudges on the windows that I have not wiped clean. There is silence in this moment. A rare sound in our home. I know that in a matter of minutes or even an hour, my active little boys will awake and I will again be graced by the sounds of laughing, talking, and wailing. Of cars and trains being driven on the hard floors, and the constant tug on my hands by Kasen and ankles by Kelton encouraging me to come and play. I will serve them food that will undoubtedly get stuffed into the recesses of the high chair, dropped on the floor, smeared on the table, and mashed into the crevices of their faces. We will take time to read stories and I will answered the never ending questions of “why?”
The tub will be filled and the bubbles overflowing as I watch them splash, and laugh, and play. And when I tuck them in at night, Kasen will ask me to cuddle with him and we will giggle together as we make animal shadows with our hands in the glow of his flashlight. And when I go to leave, I will rub his back not once, but twice, because he will ask that of me. Kelton will snuggle in close as we rock together and he nurses. He will reach up and feel my face, studying its contours and shapes. And he will fall off to sleep as I lay him in his bed. I will quietly close the door. Clean the house. Spend precious time with Kai as we talk about the day and the future. And when we fall into bed, our bodies tired from the day, and we're spending moments close together, my mind will wander as I remember these events of this day. Every day. And I realize that I am blessed. And that life is sweet.